I don't know

I'm on my deepest thoughts right now. 25 na ako. At ang pag-iisa ay nakasanayan ko na.

I've been doing it for all the years that i have lived. Even when i was a still a child and until now that i grew up.

And I'm sure i am really good at being alone. Doing what i want, decisions, how to live my life and I manage to stay alive.

And then, there comes the people. Some will stay and take a space in my life, i let some of them be a part of what's mine and build a dream for our future. Unknowingly their time with me ended before i knew.

And now, most of my nights are alone, empty and silent. Sometimes i wish i had someone to talk to. But most of the night are just like every other night in silence.

That is why i came up to an idea that no one will be there for me. My family have their own life, as to were my friends and other people they have their own problems dealing on their own.

So i put my time and effort focusing on myself. I came back reading books, watching movies and kdrama, i learn to draw art and portraits, and I'm doing great.

But, it always feels that i have nothing, just myself.

There are no one to listen on my deepest thoughts, and maybe it is what it is.

I'll just continue what i have started. And repeat it every single time.